cimoc fias morf tiuq i

... elbigille ton mi . eromyna cimoc fias rof cimoc gnikam pots i

? yhw

... yalam ni rewsna ym

sebab2nya ...

aku ni otaku , bukannya seorang dai' . aku x sesuai untuk menjadi seorang dai'
mengapa ?

sedangkan aku x mengikuti sunnah Nabi Muhammad , camner aku nak sampaikan dakwah ?
apatah lagi dgn keadaan aku ? jangan mimpilah aku nak jd dai' ...

xpayah la ...
aku taknak berpura-pura dgn diri sendiri ...

yg penting ...
aku kena tunaikan apa yg patut ...
= =

DEADLINE !!!

AAAAARRRGGGGHHHHH !!!!

Lots of works to do !!!
this week is the deadline of manga of Saif Comic .
Printmaking works !!
dual trips !!!

naaaahhhh .
need to take a break of this .
= =

fine art exhibition

actually just now i had my exhibition of oil painting , which that kind of painting was one of my worst weakness ...

i felt down ...
watching other ppl can do perfectly ...
not like me ...
just an otaku who's weak at oil painting .
other than that i dont really care much ...

i feel so lame today ...
i tried my best ...

maybe i should concentrate to my manga skills than fine art skills ... = =

Otaku's Anime Assignments

weahhhhh ...

lots of things to do . as a mangaka , fine art student , as a muslim , as a son of my to-san and ka-chan ...
lots of responsibility .

this morning i made a line art of my original characters based to Amagami SS .
Kusanagi Haru X Kazeshiro Elodea based to Kamizaki Risa X Tachibana Junichi .

I'll upload the full artwork later , maybe 2 weeks due to busyness i have now . = =

Glass cage

last night i dreamed something horrible : i cant reach someone i love because im trapped inside a glass cage . she tried to save me but it ended up like i was killed inside a glass cage . she could not save me . deep in my heart i feel the pain from my past memories . the fear of fail in love . i affraid i broke her heart or she will broke my heart . same as the last post :

kimi wa kimi no mama de
boku wa boku no mama de
subete wakariaetara

if i cant completely understand ppl now ... i affraid the past will be repeated .
-cry-

deep cry in my heart enduring loneliness

suddenly i remembered my past after listening to 2nd opening of Amagami SS .

kimi wa kimi no mama de - you just being you
boku wa boku no mama de - and me just being me
subete wakariaetara - if we could completely understand each other

even i cant understand other ppl ... deep in my heart , im crying for my stupidness .
because of this , i failed lots of times .

if i could have a girl who completely understand me and make me mutually understand each other ... i dont really mind who she is . as long as she's with me , we'll endure anything even the tragedy will fall between us .

God , give me any girl that suits me fine ... Don't let me crying alone ...
I want to experience it once .

update #1

i already added clock widget and my deviantart gallery gadget in this blog . feel free to check them out . XD

くさなぎ はる

Refreshing my mind

Well , Im not very good at these but the method Im going to use : making Muslim manga .
maybe it helps to hinder my interest to NTR / HENTAI / PORN RELATED STUFF .
o o

Idle ??

well ... i dont know if i really need to update my status but ...
for now im too lazy . o o
because i have many projects to do as well as university assignments .
waaarghhh i hate assignments !!!
now i can draw potraits . (well not very experienced anyway , just drew 2 of them)
maybe later ... o o

another thing . why some otakus love hentai stuff ?
you know , we're exposed to porn related stuff @ internet , DVDs , anything can induces guys sexually attracted to women like big breasts , beautiful body , exposed breasts , erotic poses whatsoever . same as me , i was exposed to h-related stuff by hentai made by schoolmates . zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

maybe i better draw loli anime style next time . = =