Flood of busyness !!

Im really busy this week . Got almost 6 projects to be accomplished .
Naaah . I really hate myself today ... until Friday next week (maybe?) ...

God ... Give me strength to accomplish all of my works ...
I cant fail this time ...

Zamenda ...

It was disappointing ...
To see myself drown in my own lust of pleasure .
It was disappointing ...
To see myself crying for love .
It was disappointing ...
To see myself failed ... in everything ...
It was disappointing ...
To see myself at past who do not consider other people's feelings ...
It was disappointing ...
To cry at times like this ...

I HAVE TO GO ON WITH MY LIFE !

pressure ...

130/75 .
Im not really well today ...
I just feeling i wanted to stop my journey ...
Lost my motivation ...

But I still have to continue my life ...
As a Muslim ...

That's my resolve to continue my life ...


Life is meaningless to me without someone I love truly besides God ...


I ever thought this when Im doing my painting ...
Why I cant do something that giving people to understand what is life about ?
Even Im clueless why Im still exist here ...

I have purpose that need to be accomplished ...
I have the resolve .

Do you have your own resolve to continue your life ?

Another thing ...

Well ...
I know her ...
3 times face-to-face .

O God , don't let me fall in love or else I'll sad and cry endlessly ...
Give me the true love ...
Give me the "Elodea" I beloved most from the high content of Iman ...
Give me the strength to endure all the trials from You ...
Give me back the nikmat of understanding other people's feelings ...

I've lost that nikmat almost 9 years ...
I've lost my beloved Nee-chan almost 11 years ago ...
I've lost my way to the God ...
I've lost everything in my life ...

Gomen na ...

Malaysian stupidity increases !

now , the first malaysian woman made an stupidity sickness . = ="

regarding to CNN posted an article about the caricature

latest information regarding to caricature

Errr .... someone asked me for latest info about the Malaysian caricature which annoys Japanese .

I said , no updates about it for now .
I'll gather the info ASAP .

XD

= =

WHATS THIS ? THAT WIIL MADE OTAKU-
I MEANT JAPANESE PPL , WILL ANGRY !!!

IT SUCKS TO BE A MALAYSIAN . = =

Fear of the loss

o o
Actually Im not very good in love .
Suddenly I become scared . Scared of losing someone important in life .
I really scared . I fear I will not be able to meet her again .

When I saw her face , it calmed me from my anger delusions . But at the same time , I felt very down . My feelings will not reach her . And I fear , when that time comes ... I cant convey my feelings towards her .

She treated me as a younger brother to him . But to me , she's the replacement of my lost beloved one ...

I can't cry but I'm crying deep in my heart . My voice will not reach her ...

trip !

sorry ...
im too lazy to update blog .
its quite a tiring day ...
more sketches and live painting . o o